want more...

it seems as though there is always something around the corner to make you feel disapointed, doubtful, scared and hurt. I want more of...

LOVE. honesty. people being true to themselves. money. independence. confidence. enjoyment of life. generousity. joy. drive. positive thinking. change. happiness. freedom. inner strength. release. growth. feeling alive.

sometimes I get so caught up in what I don't have...sometimes it's really hard to escape the negetive pattern of thinking that will just bring me down. I know in my heart that life is beautiful...even when I am devestated and confused, I know that I need to move on. I get so focused on everyone else around me getting what they want, and I see myself not getting anything of what I want makes me feel like I can never achieve it. I know deep down that I can, and that maybe I'm scared.. scared that nothing will ever change.

I want to get out of my circle of sadness, and see that it's all there.. but I have to work for it. It's how you deal with what you're given in life that matters, and sometimes nothing changes.. the only thing that is different is your perpsective from day to day.............

I am now moving on to a better place....