Life just seems constantly a bit crazy... everything around you is changing. You never know when something is going to happen. Although, pretty much life ticks on the same way.
I am learning latley that life is about your perspective. It holds the key to everything. I felt a bit down this last week...but I feel like I felt this way to learn a lesson. It all depends how you look at situations. I often find myself in emotional ruts, and I feel stuck. But..I am the one who as put myself in that state of mind, and I can bring myself out out of it too.
When you are manifesting something, what you feel comes back to you. Although I've heard this a few times, it's something you have to experiance for yourself to understand. I am learning what true strength of spirit is.. to move beyond those feelings that are negetive. I really value all emotions, cause they tell you things. But, negetive emotions are very draining, and leave you in a very dark place. I am learnign more and more to look inward for these feelings. Often, looking outward leaves you feeling drained. You are the center of your life. I think we are taught to spend so much of our energy on others, on your job, on surviving, etc.... Learning to be aware and alive are things maybe a lot of us lack... There is so much value in being alone, a lesson I am still coming to terms with. (can you tell I have been thinking a lot lately??) lol. I often find myself in a state of just pure contentment. I feel like this feeling is the ultimate abundance. I usually have this feeling on my own. Although, I do feel it sometimes with others...it's more prevelent when it's just me......
I think I will leave it here for now.. :D
Monday, July 30, 2007
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Monday, July 9, 2007
Decompressing from Gratefulfest..
Well, what an amazing time that was.
The first day we got there, it was awewsome. I felt like I was on a natural high just being there. We ran into all of our friends from Canada and got a wicked welcome. Everyone said they were so excited we where there.. it felt so nice!!! The first night of Dark Star Orchestra was AMAZING. This band is increadible. They play dead like the Dead does. The first night they played all kinds of wicked tunes and had a ton of energy. We were all so pumped to be there!! Lauren's hero, David Gans played a BEAUTIFUL set this night, it almost made me cry. He is one Talented Artist. After them, Cornmeal played. They are sweet bluegrass band that played acoustic and was really givin-r!!!
I went to bed soon after that, cuase it was a long day of driving.
Second Day...woke up feeling very groggy and out of it. It was super hot and very muggy. Lauren and I still got up early ish and made grilled cheese and salad..and went swimming!!! The music this day was wicked. The first band was Big Leg Emma..heard them from the beach :D. I don't really remember who played this day.. lol. I know I got a bit blasted from the sun and had to go into the shade. OH yeah. I think Greyboy Allstars played this day.. they were wicked and so funky. It was so hard to leave the stage to make the long trek back to our campsite. IT was a good 10 minuite walk back there. Dark Star was pretty mellow this night, and I found myself even more tired than the first night...goign to bed early :D
Third day.. amazing music alll day long. Started off with Jerry Garcia band... one of the highlights for me. They are soo funky and wicked. Donna Jean and the Tricksters played too, it was awesome to see Donna...she just radiated lots of amazing energy on the stage. Zero played next, but I had to miss them cause I needed to eat and rest. Keller Williams played next last, he was awesome!!! I love him. Dark Star's set this night, was wicked. They did a cover of Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds, and there was a huge fireworks display. After dark Star, David Gans and some of the DarkStar guys played a beautiful set. Lauren and I stayed up late and hung out at a forest disco party!!!!
The last day was pretty mellow, everyone had a blast the night before.. haha :D
I think this was my favourite day. Everything just seemed right and relaxed. New Riders of the Purple sage played.. soooo great. They played Friend of the Devil with David Gans and Donna Jean which was beatiful!!! Umphrey's McGee played, they were pretty good but I needed to rest during thier set. Darkstar's final night was wicked. They got people to donate for a rafflle for Rett's Syndrome, and make a request. They played the songs we requested. Started off with Shakedown Street!! yeeah!!!! Boombox played during the set breaks.. they were awesome and I got their cd and can't stop listening.
Had a weird night the last night, very random but fun. Woke up and Lauren wasn't there!! She finally found me, and after a little bit, we were off!!
such a wicked time. I was totally exhausted from this festival.. all the walking and the heat drained all the energy out of me. Other highlights were firepoi on the beach all night, Ganga icecream, and cliff jumping!!!!!! sooooo fun. I hoep I can go back soon!!!!!
Well, what an amazing time that was.
The first day we got there, it was awewsome. I felt like I was on a natural high just being there. We ran into all of our friends from Canada and got a wicked welcome. Everyone said they were so excited we where there.. it felt so nice!!! The first night of Dark Star Orchestra was AMAZING. This band is increadible. They play dead like the Dead does. The first night they played all kinds of wicked tunes and had a ton of energy. We were all so pumped to be there!! Lauren's hero, David Gans played a BEAUTIFUL set this night, it almost made me cry. He is one Talented Artist. After them, Cornmeal played. They are sweet bluegrass band that played acoustic and was really givin-r!!!
I went to bed soon after that, cuase it was a long day of driving.
Second Day...woke up feeling very groggy and out of it. It was super hot and very muggy. Lauren and I still got up early ish and made grilled cheese and salad..and went swimming!!! The music this day was wicked. The first band was Big Leg Emma..heard them from the beach :D. I don't really remember who played this day.. lol. I know I got a bit blasted from the sun and had to go into the shade. OH yeah. I think Greyboy Allstars played this day.. they were wicked and so funky. It was so hard to leave the stage to make the long trek back to our campsite. IT was a good 10 minuite walk back there. Dark Star was pretty mellow this night, and I found myself even more tired than the first night...goign to bed early :D
Third day.. amazing music alll day long. Started off with Jerry Garcia band... one of the highlights for me. They are soo funky and wicked. Donna Jean and the Tricksters played too, it was awesome to see Donna...she just radiated lots of amazing energy on the stage. Zero played next, but I had to miss them cause I needed to eat and rest. Keller Williams played next last, he was awesome!!! I love him. Dark Star's set this night, was wicked. They did a cover of Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds, and there was a huge fireworks display. After dark Star, David Gans and some of the DarkStar guys played a beautiful set. Lauren and I stayed up late and hung out at a forest disco party!!!!
The last day was pretty mellow, everyone had a blast the night before.. haha :D
I think this was my favourite day. Everything just seemed right and relaxed. New Riders of the Purple sage played.. soooo great. They played Friend of the Devil with David Gans and Donna Jean which was beatiful!!! Umphrey's McGee played, they were pretty good but I needed to rest during thier set. Darkstar's final night was wicked. They got people to donate for a rafflle for Rett's Syndrome, and make a request. They played the songs we requested. Started off with Shakedown Street!! yeeah!!!! Boombox played during the set breaks.. they were awesome and I got their cd and can't stop listening.
Had a weird night the last night, very random but fun. Woke up and Lauren wasn't there!! She finally found me, and after a little bit, we were off!!
such a wicked time. I was totally exhausted from this festival.. all the walking and the heat drained all the energy out of me. Other highlights were firepoi on the beach all night, Ganga icecream, and cliff jumping!!!!!! sooooo fun. I hoep I can go back soon!!!!!
Monday, July 2, 2007
blech.
Well...
lol it's kind of funny that my last post I was really happy. Today I am really blah. I know it's all in the balance of things but I just feel drained, frustrated and a bit down. Not too sure why, I guess I'm just pretty tired.
But at times I just need to feel a bit yucky I guess. This weekend was really crazy, and I have been going and going with not too much time to rest and relax.
I also am slightly delusional sometimes I think, which can add up to dissappointment. Being Idealistic is really great, but I think U also have to balance it with being realistic. Things aren't always what they seem. I wish I could know what someone was thinking, or what was going to happen. Unfortunatly, I just don't have that talent.
I know that everything works out in the end. . . It's hard to see that when you know it's not what you want, and maybe you want things to work out one way, but they end up going in the opposite direction from what you'd expect, or maybe in the opposite direction from what you'd hoped.
I think life is so random that way...I guess you just have to take the good with the bad and live life as it comes at you. I always try to think positive, but at times it's just easier to be in a cranky mood!
lol it's kind of funny that my last post I was really happy. Today I am really blah. I know it's all in the balance of things but I just feel drained, frustrated and a bit down. Not too sure why, I guess I'm just pretty tired.
But at times I just need to feel a bit yucky I guess. This weekend was really crazy, and I have been going and going with not too much time to rest and relax.
I also am slightly delusional sometimes I think, which can add up to dissappointment. Being Idealistic is really great, but I think U also have to balance it with being realistic. Things aren't always what they seem. I wish I could know what someone was thinking, or what was going to happen. Unfortunatly, I just don't have that talent.
I know that everything works out in the end. . . It's hard to see that when you know it's not what you want, and maybe you want things to work out one way, but they end up going in the opposite direction from what you'd expect, or maybe in the opposite direction from what you'd hoped.
I think life is so random that way...I guess you just have to take the good with the bad and live life as it comes at you. I always try to think positive, but at times it's just easier to be in a cranky mood!
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